I mentioned a few posts back that my life is very stressful right now. There are multiple things (that I won't get into because they're too personal to share at this point) that have triggered my depression and took my emotions for a negative turn. However, one can not stay unhappy forever. One should not stay unhappy forever. You should try your hardest to make sure you're okay.
Over the past few months I've learned a lot about myself, and how to deal with my thoughts and feelings. One major thing I've realized is that I must love myself more. I can have all the love in the world from everyone around me, but if I have no love for myself within me, all of that means nothing. Sometimes it is okay to be selfish - in the sense of doing things for you to make you better. Many of us are so worried about taking care of the people around us and making sure they're okay, we forget to make sure we're okay. And that's just not fair to you.
What to do to make yourself happy? I don't know - it all depends on the person. If waking up at 5:00 in the morning every day to jog around the block makes you happy, do it. If sitting by the pier writing in your journal makes you feel good, do it. Whatever it is that makes all the happy feelings come to you all at once, that is what you do.
Personally, I need structure. Structure and routine. Because without those, you leave open spaces in your day where you may want to do unhealthy things, and stuff that is detrimental to keeping you going in the right direction. I am not in school or working right now, so I need to figure out a routine on my own so that I'm not idle and vulnerable to doing fucked up shit. I'm currently working on what will be apart of that routine, and I know it'll be a work in progress.
So often we forget that emotional health and awareness is just as important as physical health and awareness. Stop forgetting, and start working on all of you. It's the only way to keep sane.